jan 11

Week 16 -MKE – Kindness

Friday, time to post my weekly blog-update. Yesterday, my brother and I had a very hectic day, moving our mother to a new retirement home. Actually I did none of my exercises, except the Guy in the Glass, before I went to bed 3 am, after a shower. When we ”installed” our mother at the retirement home, she was almost hysterical. She said, I can not stay her Jan, I will come and sleep in your apartment and or that she wanted to go back to the former, terrible, retirement home. That is not unusual for old people, when their environment changes. We hired Tiptap (internet service/app) movers. Two wonderful, very kind and extremely service minded women did a fantastic work, moving our furniture. When I finally got back to my mothers new retirement home, about 10 pm, I thought now my mother will be hysteric. But the fantastic, nice and kind staff, told me, that my mother had asked for me. They told her, that may be Jan is at home, sleeping. My mother had replied ”Okey, then he will visit tomorrow”. Jesus, I thought, this is a true miracle. I stayed to 1 am and fixed everything. My mother was very positive, on the retirement home and the surroundings, the forrest outside the window. This is really miracolous, I thouhgt. I am so, very, very, very grateful, that we found a good retirement home for our mother, a nice place, with a wonderful, caring and well organized, warm hearted staff! Thank you Lord!
So yesterday, I made no prospect calls, I just did not have time for that, or for my readings, but I started to make prospect/Gold calls each work day, the goal according to my DMP is 20 calls each work day, and to register 4 new prospects each day. Today I started to work very late afternoon, but I still made 8 calls and registred 5 new prospects. I have also shared two kindesses in members area, although, I didn’t make not being caught. Now I will visit my mother and try a new gym, which is very close to where my mother is staying now. I am on my way to a new future. Now, this afternoon I have made all things, I ”did not have the time for”, I am creating a new blueprint.

jan 03

Week 15 – MKE – This is it

This is it, this is my life right now. Started to work at my business partners office today, although I had a bad night with to little and low quality sleep due to my IBS issues. Yesterday, as ususal I visited the retirement home were my mother lives. The staff don’t like me, as I complain a lot and there really is a lot to complain about. Yesterday they informed my, that the daily garbage, for example the wast like food package, I am not allowed to put that among their waste, I should ”take care of it, in the same way you do at home”.. YES and where should I dispose it, shall I carry it to my apartment? It makes me mad, excuse my not being very spiritual, but this staff they are really stupid. I am not very popular, as I complain about everything they do wrong, like destroy woolen garments by washing them in hot water. When I came home, I noticed I had missed my lunch readings. When I did my evening readings, first then I became aware of how I totally got caught up in the thoughts in my head, being upset, I totally lost all mindfulness. These are the every day thoughts of my old blueprint. If I don’t interrupt them constantly with my readings and exercises, I will stay in my old self destructive OCD patterns. Late afternoon today I decided to do my ”Gold calls” (cold calls), creating my new habit according to my DMP, to make calls (20) every work day. Now I only made 9 calls, but I celebrate that, I am establishing a very powerful habit. It is a classic mistake among people who work with sales/own business, to work only with your orders and forget prospecting. I form good habits and become their slave. It really is not difficult to become successful, I just need to create good habits. One of them is writing my post on time, well on time this week. Good habits or bad habits is the difference between a prosperous and happy life and disaster. Now i publish this post and then do my daily reading sales books, before my business partner givs me a lift from the office. I am grateful that I had the chance to show kindess today. My business partners dad has gone through a heart surgery and he is really going through some tough challenges. I gave him a copy of cardiologist Steven R Gundrys ”The Plant Paradox”. I also gave him the affirmation ”I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, harmonious and happy.” This is it, my life is right now. I must and will keep momentum, moving forward with good habits creating a prosperous, exuberant and happy life. Yesterday I checked the dates for a course for beginners in stand up, in Stockholm. It starts january 21th.

Dec 29

MKE – week 14

The shortest post ever. This week just disappeared. It is a habit writing this post on time. I will update it tomorrow. I really have a lot of work to do, with my business,Sleeping habits and master key.

Updating this post, december 30th after webinar. I just made my PIF, printed the Franklin Makeover, although it is past midnight here, wanted to do the servey, but it is not up yet. I also wrote two blog comments. Now, get to bed, it is almost 1,30 past midnight. Getting back on the track again!

Dec 22

Week 13 – MKE – restart and catch up

Challenges…I need to restart, catch up and persist until I succeed. I need to get back doing everything mentioned in my DMP and most important, make everything a habit, or else I will not reach my goals. Again, most crucial are my sleeping habits. This week I went to be to late every evening.

Usually I don’t have time to read the newspaper. The other day, when I came home after I visited my dear mother at the retirement home, it was around 9 pm. I was very tired, should have gone to bed immediately, but I sat down on the couch and read the newspaper, Svenska Dagbladet, very thoroughly. Then again, when I got to bed it again it was past midnight. But I just had the feeling, that I needed space for myself, at the same time I would really, really, have needed to sleep early. I need to get in sync with the circadian rhythms. I am late with my last service and need to decide on this weeks.

But there is no going back, I badly need to succeed and master my inner demons, or dragons, my OCD, my IBS. I can not go back to, I would not call it a life in quit desperation, but dissatisfaction, not manifesting my greatest talents.

Obviously (?) there is still a craving from my cells for the old peptides; so I need to work harder and/or more effective. Obviously I also should avoid affirming that it is ”hard” to better my sleeping habits. But still, I am really a mistery to myself. I know, everything, would be so much better with better sleeping habits/patterns, as stated in my DMP, go to bed 10 pm, get up 5.30 am four days a week. That would have an astonishing impact on all areas of my life and wellbeing.

So what am I afraid of? Why am I afraid of what I truly am, light?

Finally I got to the garbage room, with several weeks newspapers and bulky waste. That was really a relief, I thought, what am I doing, creating a bad habit?

Now get to bed and then persist, persist and do it now, do it now.

 

Dec 15

Week 12 – MKE – hold on, change is coming

”Hold on, change is coming” is a song we sometimes sing in the choire I joined, but I haven’t been there for over a month and done no vocal training so I skipped participation in all the concerts the choir will sing at. I feel sad about that, but I run my business, visit my dear mother, almost two hours each day, do my gym training three times a week, so I just made this choice.

I need to re-write my Press Release and read it more often. Beside my readings I think a lot of being in my new reality, larger income (Liberty), better sleeping habits, having cured my IBS and OCD, being able to travel a lot, participate in exciting seminars, for example with Brendon Burchard. I don’t use the expression ”I can’t afford to…”, that is like pouring poison into my subconscious. So I think of being more successful, but I feel that the picture or the view of my future is not clear enough. My future me is still a stranger. That needs to be improved.

Yesterday was a really good day. I worked at my business partners office, a company owned by his mother. She is a wonderful, amazing person, so positive and generous. She and her son, my business partner are really good and inspiring examples to me. They are successful people, extremely generous and the energy at this office is so good. Two or three dogs, small children and a very enthusiastic and caring atmosphere.

After a productive work day I visited my dear mother at the retirement home. I took her to Taeby Centrum and we did a lot of errands, hers and mine. We went to a phone store, to dry cleaning, pharmacy (but i forgot my own prescription) and bought som groceries. This is really a change thanks to MKE, I get a lot more stuff done. Usually I often forget some errands, but now I just remembered everything. A new thinking habit is being established. I think, is there anything else I could do now, right now? On top of this my dear mother was in a good mood, that was great. The day before I really went nuts about her complaining.

I still haven’t started my MLM business, I don’t fell good about that. As a starter I need to write my prospect list and study the info from the company. Again I note, this is becoming a negative affirmation, that my sleeping patterns are disastrous.

Argh…my DMP says I shall write four days a week on my book. Now I have been off more than two weeks. This is a true story. The last third of the book is written, a bit more than the middle part has to be ”re-constructed”. So I really need to get started with that part. Don’t beat myself up, that is just establishing the old blueprint, just keep affirming do it now, do it now, do it now, do it now and get it done. Don’t think, don”t think, don’t think, just start my MacBook and start writing, the law of momentum!!!

Not if, but when this change is coming, I go to bed no later than 10 pm and get up 5.30 am four days a week, as written in my DMP, I estimate that my productivity will increase with 30 to 40 percent.

Is increase ”by” or ”with” in english? Or are both correct?

Better sleeping patterns will better my IBS and OCD, may be get rid of my symptoms totally.

Now it is almost one and a half hour past midnight, but I consider this blog post published on time. Good habit! I will celebrate the good things I do and don’t beat myself up with the stuff I can improve. Note, I am watching my language, good habit!!!

I will be kind do myself. A very quick reading of my Master Key lesson, a very short sit and then bed time. Good night, sleep tight and don’t let the bed bugs bite!

 

 

 

Dec 08

Week 11 – MKE – I will persist

Nov 30

Week 10 – MKE – Keep up the work

End of work day, sitting in my business partners office. My plans were to go for a short visit at the retirement home where my mother lives (I do longer visits almost every day) and then an AA meeting in town. But my business partner and his colleques seeme never to finish, I need a lift. So I write my post now and I create the habit of being on time, even if it is a short one this time.

I needed to fix som financial problems this week, my tax payment. Finally I managed, by som family help/advance of inheritance I made it. I missed some of my readings this week. Yesterday, I shamefully must admit, I missed my Master Key reading. it was bedtime, and 1.40 am. My first impulse was, I really need to sleep, but then, I did the GS, BPB and DMP readings very loud and enthusiastically and the Guy in the glass in my bathroom. That felt good.

This weeks MK with the quadrant exercise really makes my confused. I think it is very easy, have I misunderstood something?

I need to catch up with some things on the index cards, but I do my weekly exercise every week, creating a habit of ”I always keep my promises.” Now I really need to better my sleeping habits, that is a must.

But I have come to the conclusion that there is no way back to my old life and old blueprint.

 

Nov 23

Week 9 – MKE – Compass or clock – Is your life a magnificent trip or path to retirement?

On previous MKE, last year, after the exercise not watching teve I stayed off the teve more or less, totally, for months or half a year. I am interested in politics, so during swedish elections in autumn, I started to watch the news again, but, beginning of september I thought, this is a bad habit, so I stopped watching totally. I have a lot of very interesting books in my home, but more than 90% I have not read. Why spend a lot of money on buying books and then not read them? Watching teve two hours a day, that is insane!

Now I do my MK exercises, I visit my dear mother on the retirement home every day for one or two hour. Then I work, in my home office (kitchen) or at my  business partners office. I do gym training three times a week, not much time left for relaxation. So in some aspects I still have a ”clock issue”, but……

I sleep well, but I never get to bed on time, it is often midnight, or 1 or 2 am. When I adjust that I will gain a lot in better health, energy and efficiency. My IBS and OCD will be much better. My DMP says, go to bed 10 pm and get up 5.30 am four days a week. It is really a mistery to me, why it is so hard for me to get rid of this disastrous habit.

About the clock and the compass, I would never say that ”I don’t have time for the MKE”. That would be an absurd statement, not having ”time” to be liberated from inner demons and self destrucive habits. Some of my friends say this, one of them is a heavy over eater, yet an other suffers from OCD and a lot of negative self talk.

My 95 year old mother, she has not made much of her life, so she suffers from anxiety and does complaining ”for a living”. She is so sweat, but her complaining drives me nuts sometimes. I don’t want to end up the same way as her, constantly blaming circumstances and other people.

So my only choice is to succeed with my MKE, do the exercises, fulfill my DMP, replace bad habits with good habits and make the most of the gifts the Creator so generously has given me.

When it is time for me to die, I want to say ”It was a magnificent trip, now let the next reincarnation be as well lived as this one!”

But maybe it’s also important to admit that I’m mourning my old self, the one who in the evening could sit down in the couche, just relaxing in front of the teve, or do some Facebook surfing, just being lazy. I can never go back to that. But to be honest, what you do, watching teve, is trying to get excitment, watching other people, whos lives are more exciting or prosperous than you own. It is living in a dream or fantasy, instead of creating an amazing life on your own.

The Creator has given us amazing gifts. If we were aware of how amazing creatures we are, we would be stunned!

Is your life a magnificent trip, or is it just s path to retirement?

 

It is almost lunch time. I am sitting in my business partners office. He is at home sleeping, they had a server crash, so he worked until 6.30 am. I am very greatful the new server is installed. I willl check comments, make comments on some other blogs. Then I need to get back to work and make my daily 20 ”Gold calls” (cold calls). My DMP says 20 calls, but I make 10 – 14, must improve today!

Nov 16

WEEK 8 – MKE – Vision board

In 2004 I listened to Randy Gages lecture on prosperity consciousness in Stockholm. I bought RandysProsperity Manifestation Map. I took my 14 years before I finally, thanks to the Maste Key Experience got it done, this week on tuesday evening. I skipped my choire singing to do that.

I felt such a tremendous satisfaction and I still to. I put the map in my kitchen (home office) on a cabinet door. I am so fascinated by the map, many times each day I watch the map and I will also fix it as a screen saver on my Mac and iPhone. A believe, as Randy also tells, that a vision board is very powerful.

The mental diet is not working very well, but I have became much more aware of choosing my thoughts. I still have to do my recordings, will get that done this weekend.

Did my laundry yesterday evening and I went to bed 1.45 am, not much sleep this week. But this last three days have been very productive. I feel I am on the right track.

There is a tremendous difference now on my self management. I very seldom waste any time. My business partner, his wife, mam and dad are all very powerful examples for me. I am so greatful for that, being able at no cost, to work at their office.

Nov 10

Week 7 – MKE – tuff times

I am a bit late with this blog post. I will do my recordings during sunday. Today my best friend will visit me. We have not met for a long time, except 12-step meetings. That will be very nice. Monday my dear mother got sick again, high fever, we suspected an infection and the staff at the retirement home sent her (together with me) in an ambulance to the hospital. I came home at 2 am. But thank God it was now infection, so she could leave the hospital on wednesday.

I am having a really tuff time. I need to do a lot of business very quickly, or else I will have to sell my apartment. So it is a struggle right now, ot focus on what I want, wealth, and not focus on what I don’t want, debt.

So I need a miracle, I will work on it. The seven day mental diet, not yet a great success. Yesterday my business partner yelled at me. I really had to us all ”spiritual methods” not to get stuck in thinking how I will get even.

Now, soon my friend will come. I will make a chocolat mousse for us and then my friend will pick me up in his car, we will buy some food, cook and then watch the amazing ”Peacful Warrior” one of the absolutely best movies I ever seen. Before everything I will pay a short visit to my mother, so she gets her walk in day light.

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